Misteriousness

I am soooo motivated today, et je ne sais pas pourquoi, somehow I know that everything will get better from now on, well atleast with me, dunno bout my parents, but I don't want to think about them cos it will just take my good mood. Today someone said something really random to me, he said that I confuse him and that he never knows what I think or what I will do next, I just don't know if this is a good or bad thing, I mean it is good being misterious, but I don't want to be all closed up towards my friends, and he really is a good friend, and he said that it isn't only him who thinks that. I don't see myself as something special, or different or that I am very original, I simply live my life the way I want to, and if it's different from yours then thats nothing bad, cos I am me and you are you, and I am not going to live like you just because you think it is the right way of living, and I would never tell you to live like me, cos for me it is the right way, but it might not be for you. And if I act or dress differently then that's my problem, but you don't have reasons to judge about it, cos I don't judge about you as long as you wear clothes to school that hide your undies.

Career Counselling Part 2

I don't know what to write about, I lost my inspiration... Well I guess that I am single again, but I don't care anymore. I am not going to winge about the end of my relationship, cos it's always the same shit with the guys, and I am just soo bored of it. I fine being alone, and I think that I need some time on my own for a while, cos there is no point in rushing from one relationship into another, and I learnt that one the hard way, but whatever I am not going to write about this anymore. Well I actually wanted to write about the career thing, but I dunno what to say about it, well the women said I should go and study Sociology and research human behaviour, or work for the T.V as a journalist, or be a movie director, or go and do bio-chemistry and research in science cos apparently I am smart in that area, although i doubt it cos I got a BB in my co-ordinated science. Well I really still don't know what I should do later on, movie director sounds liek a good idea cos I love inventing scripts and then imaging how they are performed, and the T.V career is also something interesting because I love all those documentaries and I love watching the news, cos I just think you learn soo much about our world with it. The woman also said that I should look at jobs related to medicine, like nutrionist and I really don't get how the woman can suggest me being a nutrionist when I can't even eat regularly and healthy myself, how the hell am I gonna persuade other people to do it? I mean, I eat less than my 2 year old brother, and I only eat shit like the lemonissimo ice cream, sooo i doubt that people are gonna believe me when I tell them about healthy alimentation. All in all it was quite good to do it because I know now much more about some jobs, and what you can do when you later on after uni when you did a specific course.

Odeio escrever no blog em portugues.

Btw antes de lerem isso, deviam ter a nocao q o meu portugues é uma merda, pq ando num colegio ingles, e que nao tenho o teclado portugues, por isso nao tenho alguns acentos.

O que estou a sentir para ti é super estranho, porque sò te conheco a pouco tempo e ja és super importante para mim e tou a morrer de saudades tuas e nao aguento tar sem ti.. És me mesmo muito, e tudo ainda é muito cedo e tal, mas qu acho que nos somos mais do que sò uma curte. Porque se nao, nao iria estar a sentir o que estou a sentir neste momento. Eu gosto do que temos agora e nao quero perder isso, gosto do facto de nao ser nada de sério mas tambem ser mais do q sò uma curte. Nao consigo esperar até tarmos juntos outra vez, e estou tao feliz quando estou contigo e mesmo sendo seres um parvo/nojento/feio/deficiente/maluco estou super contente por te ter conhecido. Tambem andam a dizer que desde que te conheco estou diferente, que estou muito mais contente e alegre e que tudo a tristeza das ultimas semanas bazaram. E eles teem razao, desde que te conheco ja nao sou a mesma. E sim, sou tua, e nao me vais perder por nada e espero bem que nao te vou perder, porque ja nao quero tar sem ti. Adoro-te def @

Career Counselling

Yesterday i paid 100 euros for some stupid career counselling, and i think in some way it will help me, but in a nother it is proved that life never takes the way you want it to, so why should you do a stupid test which just asks you if you like something or not and then even pay for it?! I don't have a clue of what i want to be in my future execpt that i don't want to be a hooker/stripper/farmer/cleaning lady. So my parents made me do it, I am a bit skeptic about it, because why should a bunch of stupid questions determine what you will be later on? Oh well I will keep you updated when the results come.