Dreams @

I once dreamt of still being with you when i was old and grey, of still feeling the same intense love we had at the beginning, but soo much changed. You told me it's over, that I don't provoke anymore the same strong sensations to you as I did before, that all the love you had for me is gone and that it's never going to return. Now all my dreams are shattered, and all that I wanted, which was to be happy, seems impossible to obtain right now. Maybe one day I will find someone else, but it won't be the same than with you, you were everything that I wanted. We were ment to be, supposed to be, but we lost it. When I met you I had a broken heart, but you made me smile, and one thing led to the other. With you my heart healed again, and I was so happy to have found someone that completes me, now the shattered pieces of my heart surround me, and I ask myself if it was worth it, if those few months of happines and joy was worth now being at the same point again as I was, before I met you, and yes it was worth it. Because those few months with you, were one of the best months of my life, and nobody can take away my memories. Maybe one day I will dream the same about some other random guy, but no one can ever give me what you gave me. Although I want to hate you right now, because you broke your promise, I can't, I just can't hate the person I love. Nightmares and insomnias take the place of our pleasant dreams again, but I guess I just have to deal with, because I guess I am a big girl now, and you don't have to take care about me anymore, you don't have to hold me tight anymore while i fall asleep, you don't have to make me eat something anymore, and you don't have to make my day anymore by saying that you love me.