To A Beloved One...

You hurt me bad and at the moment I wish I never had met you! I put up with all of your attitudes for 2 months, I tried to understand why you are like that, and now you just want to give up on everything, and you say it would be better for me, but I don't care what is or not best for me. I love you and I thought that you loved me to. But it isn't anymore like that, and you know since 3 weeks that your feelings aren't the same anymore, but you told me absolutely nothing about it, you just started to act strangely and moved further away from me. I don't know how I could have been so stupid and believed that for once I will be happy and have some luck. But somehow I am not rewarded with that kind of luxuries. I thought that with you, I would have found my soulmate, and you made me believe that, but as you now made me understand that it never was like this. You made me soo many promises and the way you said them, made me believe them. I can't believe that someone so nice,charming and sweet can act in such a way. If you really think that it would be better for me that we break up, then you really don't know what is best for me. It's probably only what is best for you. I am soo fed up of all your attitudes, but i put up with them, because I know that many times you don't mean the things, and that in the end you are one of the best persons I ever met in my whole life. I tried not to freak out on friday when you were at my house and totally ignored me, you didn't even properly kiss me. You don' know how much it hurts being rejected and how it made me feel. The thing that is eve worse is that on saturday we were talking face to face about our relationship and you just said that it would be better if we took a break, but you weren't able to tell me the truth, that you actually didn't want to go out with me anymore and that taking a break was just the step before breaking up. You say it is only your fault, but I know that I also did things i shouldn't have said or done and I feel bad about it, and I hope you can forgive me for what I said! But there is one big difference between us, and that is tha if I would have noticed that my feelings for you are changing and that I don't want to continue having a relationship with you, I would have told you face to face, and I wouldnt have waited 3 long weeksand made everything even worse. I hope we find a way to work things out, and what I most hope for is that things go back the way they were, because we started off so well and we were so in love, and now everything is just ruined.